Are You Sure You’re Ready For The Truth?
I’ve been married for over 9 years, have 4 beautiful children, and I work full-time. I’m not a huge drinker (almost close to saying I don’t drink) and I love to write. I’m really big on not being stagnant. Every year I feel like I should be learning something new or achieving a new goal. Just this year I’m coming to the realization that money is extremely important and you have to be careful with how you manage it. Likewise, in order to increase the numbers in your account, you need to work hard. Forget being dishonest, scamming, lying, stealing or committing fraud, that’s not me. I will be financially stable, the right way, the legal way, all while keeping my morals intact.
I’m very big on doing things the right way, but I’m not perfect. I love being kind but don’t mess with my kids or another woman will appear, ready for war. Truth is I’m passionate, creative, antisocial but an extravert all at the same time. I believe in manners, respecting others, and definitely respecting your elders. In the past, I’ve put my feelings to the side to make sure someone else was smiling which is not healthy.
The truth is I’m drained and I’m trying to find my way.
There are days I feel grateful and there are also days I feel like I don’t like where I am right now. It’s time for a change. And I know we are entering a new decade and everyone has there goals in order. Good for you, sis! But I’m certain with everything in me, that certain situations that I’ve been overlooking can’t be overlooked anymore. The next 10 years will be all about my peace, happiness, income, and relationship with God.
It’s time to get back to me. Baby, I worked my ass off this year. The kids did a number on me and my husband was extremely needy. He took more and gave less. There were days I was running on straight empty. But, I made it and all the sacrifices were worth it. I stayed focused, productive, and got so many things done. The little my husband did give (being a good father, but slacking on the whole marriage thing) made a difference as well. He had his struggles and many times I had to step up to the plate to get things done.
The truth is I hate being questioned about my personal life.
But, I feel like if I don’t answer questions being thrown at me from friendly, smiling faces, then I come off as rude. What’s crazy is, some folks ask me questions to find something wrong to make themselves feel better about their miserable lives. But, what they soon find out is, I’m not a huge complainer, I’m always looking for a solution to every problem, and I’ve learned that God will always make sure I’m good. So if you ask me how I’m doing, the answer will always be I’m doing good and the family is doing great. I mean if we were doing terrible what would you do anyway? Be ready to tell someone else?
So, since you asked, I’ll tell you the truth about me.
A woman like me just has to get up and make it happen. That’s the only way things will get done. The truth is….I’m very determined, ready to serve, help, love, and just a young woman ready to live her best life. I take the good with the bad and I trust God with my household. I’ve been forced to say good-bye to people I thought would never leave my side. But, I also realized I grew and became better after they left.
God doesn’t make mistakes and I’m here for a reason. My life has a purpose. As long as I’m walking the earth, I have a job to do. I intend on working as hard as I can until my goals are accomplished.